So, what made you think that you could take a life, and just push it around? I guess to build yourself up so high, you had to take her and break her down.
I'm gonna be okay. I know that. I know he was bad for me. I know I made mistakes too. I know that in five years, this won't hurt so bad, and I will have been with a few other guys since, and maybe even married. For now, it hurts like hell. But, I'm so grateful to have my friends and my family. You've kept me sane. He's never coming back to me, but you guys never left in the first place, and that means the world to me. I'm comforted knowing that I tried. I gave him every chance to reciprocate, and that's all I can do. I can't pretend I don't love him. I can't pretend the last two years didn't mean a thing to me, even if they did not mean so much to him. One day, it won't hurt so much. One day, all the memories will become blurry. So I'll wait. But not for him.
For me.
It took a while for her to figure out that she could run, but when she did, she was long gone.
P.S. Chelsea, Jovita, Alma, Sami... you all deserve better. You are beautiful, strong, intelligent women. I have faith in you, and I will always be here for you. No matter how far away I am.
